A quote from "The Search For Significance" by Robert S. McGee:

" From life's outset, we find ourselves on the prowl, searching to satisfy some inner, unexplained yearning. Our hunger causes us to search for people who will love us. Our desire for acceptance pressures us to perform to gain praise from others. We strive for success, driving our minds and our bodies harder and further, hoping that because of our sweat and sacrifice others will appreciate us more.
But the man or woman who lives only for the love and attention of others is never satisfied- at least, not for long. Despite our efforts, we will never find lasting, fulfilling peace if we must continually prove ourselves to others. Our desire to be loved and accepted is a symptom of a deeper need- the need that frequently governs our behavior and is the primary source of our emotional pain. Often unrecognized, this is our need for self-worth."

I play that game way too often. I like the word that Gretchen Rubin used to describe it. I am a "praise junkie". Sometimes I wonder how often I would do the right thing if there was nobody to see... It's something to think about.


Right now I need to go and listen to the amazing rainstorm that is coming down outside my window. I hope it holds out long enough that I can fall asleep to it:)
Goodnight